So it’s back into the thick of it at the house. We have junk everywhere right now. The pod out front is half full (I guess I’m an optimist, right?), boxes are everywhere in various states of packing, and there’s still some big pieces of furniture that need to get out of the house and over to a donation site as soon as possible.
So why waning for today? Shouldn’t I be waxing?
It’s more of a reference to my emotional state. Because when I walked in the house today, it did not look like the home of someone less than 30 days from a move date. And it certainly didn’t look like the home of someone with 166 days of de-cluttering and minimizing behind him, that’s for sure.
Standing in the middle of all of that chaos, I could feel everything start to rise up inside of me. Anxiety. Frustration. Feelings of being overwhelmed. And so on.
Instead of acting out on these feelings (stomping about the house barking orders, fussing at the kids for not picking up after themselves, helplessly waving my hands in the air and sighing heavily–that sort of thing), I let the feelings rise up…and then I let them do what all feelings do: fade away.
There’s still lots of work that needs to be done before we move. And there will be plenty of opportunities to practice this watching of emotions as they wax and wane. And I’m sure there will be plenty of times when I do end up acting out on them in some way.
But for today, for a moment at least, I seemed to get it right.