Day 167: Wane

So it’s back into the thick of it at the house. We have junk everywhere right now. The pod out front is half full (I guess I’m an optimist, right?), boxes are everywhere in various states of packing, and there’s still some big pieces of furniture that need to get out of the house and over to a donation site as soon as possible.

So why waning for today? Shouldn’t I be waxing?

It’s more of a reference to my emotional state. Because when I walked in the house today, it did not look like the home of someone less than 30 days from a move date. And it certainly didn’t look like the home of someone with 166 days of de-cluttering and minimizing behind him, that’s for sure.

Standing in the middle of all of that chaos, I could feel everything start to rise up inside of me. Anxiety. Frustration. Feelings of being overwhelmed. And so on.

But…

Instead of acting out on these feelings (stomping about the house barking orders, fussing at the kids for not picking up after themselves, helplessly waving my hands in the air and sighing heavily–that sort of thing), I let the feelings rise up…and then I let them do what all feelings do: fade away.

There’s still lots of work that needs to be done before we move. And there will be plenty of opportunities to practice this watching of emotions as they wax and wane. And I’m sure there will be plenty of times when I do end up acting out on them in some way.

But for today, for a moment at least, I seemed to get it right.

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7 Responses to Day 167: Wane

  1. revdarkwater says:

    Oh, yeah. For how many years have I been reminding myself that they are e-motions, they move? Better my purposes than them in the driver’s seat.

  2. Lauren says:

    Bravo. Getting to that kind of place where you can just let things fade…that’s the dream!

  3. I was reading somewhere or other the other day that one of the inevitable things about simplifying is you have to face the things that are bothering you. I am finding that as I clear out the clutter that has previously been overwhelming, it leaves me with the job of considering the other things that cause me anxiety.. The simple life is not always that tmsimple, eh?!

    • Mark says:

      Yes–and I’ve said the same thing about myself: clearing junk off a shelf is the easy part; clearing junk out of my head takes a lot more practice!

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