A few weeks back I mentioned that I might be about to face some life-changing decisions that will have an impact on my entire family–and my tendency to overthink things and project too far into the future (and usually toward worst case scenarios). Well, it looks like that decision may be upon me within the next few days….
I was hanging out with some Friends again this morning and got to thinking about the phrase “prepare the way.” Now, putting aside the explicit Isaiah or New Testament contexts for this phrase (or, if you grew up around the time I did, the Godspell reference), what I was reflecting on–the query I ended up with, really–is: if I trust that a hopeful moment is opening before me, what do I need to do to prepare its way?
I cringe a bit when I start composing “one of those” entries, but I am also trying to be as honest as I can be about where I’m at and what I’m working through….
Don’t get me wrong–I am excited about the path that seems to be opening up before me; what I am resisting, though, is charging blindly into a decision based on the things that usually motivate me when I’m off center, namely: fear and ego.
My wife points out to me that I sometimes seem to have a struggle accepting gifts. There’s probably some of that going on here as well….
At any rate: my focus today has been twofold: trusting and believing that if I attend to good guidance, from within and from outside as well, I will be led in the right direction; and preparing, as best I can, for the way to open.
Simple stuff, right?
As it turns out, one of those Friends had a book to recommend on “finding your way,” which I now own–and will start reading after dinner!
For your cud-chewing (grin), a new friend said recently, quoting his spiritual director, “Most spiritual discernment about what one should do comes down to framing the question that can be answered ‘yes’ or ‘no.’” Of course, that may take months!
I appreciate the input–I’ll take all the good guidance I can get!
My father’s favorite phrase is “Everything is an opportunity.” Good luck with your decision-making!
Thanks–yes, everything is an opportunity!